I’ve often been sad in my life, I imagine this is true for the vast majority of you who will read this. Sometimes in this sadness we look for something, anything to bring us out of it. Some of us turn to drugs, some turn to alcohol, most of us turn to music.
We all have a certain song that we need to hear when we are sad. I have several, depending on the reasons for my sadness. Left and Leaving by The Weakerthans is one of those rare songs, that no matter the reason for my sadness, helps to guide me towards the days when life will be a little bit brighter. It has one of the most melancholy riffs (forgive me if this isn’t the right terminology, I’m not really a music guy) I’ve ever heard. At the same time the lyrics of this song are some of the most hopefully uplifting lyrics in a song.
My city’s still breathing (but barely it’s true) through buildings gone missing like teeth. The sidewalks are watching me think about you, all sparkled with broken glass. I’m back with scars to show. Back with the streets I know. They never take me anywhere but here. Those stains in the carpet, this drink in my hand, these strangers whose faces I know. We meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say " I wanted it this way" and wait for the year to drown. Spring forward, fall back down. I’m trying not to wonder where you are. All this time lingers, undefined. Someone choose who’s left and who’s leaving. Memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me: some matches, a blanket, this pain in my chest, the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires, new words for old desires, and every birthday card I threw away. I wait in 4/4 time. Count yellow highway lines that you’re relying on to lead you home.
Yeah its sad, but something about the last lines of the song, give me such a sense of optimism. It’s really beautiful that a song can be so sad for the first 95% of it and then give you so much hope for the future in the last 5% of it. I wait in 4/4 time, count yellow highway lines, that you’re relying on to lead you home. We are all waiting for something, we are all doing something to pass the time until we find what we are looking for. And we are all relying on something to lead us to that place we belong. Every single one of us. No one is exempt from this rule. Our reasons are all different, but that doesn’t change anything. Now whether we get to that place we belong, depends on how hard we are willing to work to get there.